This week was the hardest week of my entire mission. I have never felt so
hated, angry, hurt, frustrated, sad, or forgotten probably in my entire life. We
had a lot go down this week and it felt like from one moment to the next the
whole world turned against Sorella Condie and me. I got to the point where I
felt like the worst missionary there ever was and that I couldn't do this any
more. Sorella Condie and I were put in a situation in which we had to uphold
some rules that are really hard but not everyone completely agreed with us-- or
seemingly no one. But this week my life changed forever.
There is a talk by President Holland that says missions aren't easy
<because salvation is not a cheap experience.> We are not asked to
experience or could possibly experience anything close to what the Savior went
through but he says missionaries and investigators <to
come to the truth, to come to salvation, to know something of this price that
has been paid, will have to pay a token of that same price.> I know that this
week in the hardest of moments when it seemed like I might never stop crying,
like I'd never reach my full potential, that the Savior carried me. I knelt down
before I went to bed and asked my Heavenly Father to take away my burdens or to
make it so I could be strong enough to bear them. I bear testimony that He did.
Hard times come and go but Heavenly Father never does. When we rely on Him and
the merits of our Savior we can overcome any trial. I was able to understand
that this experience we had was necessary. That it was a lesson-- a preparation
for the future. We don't have all our old tools for making us feel better but we
have what we need. I have a great companion, a personal witness of the power of
the atonement, and the power of prayer. I know that these are the tools of
persevering. No matter what we are faced with.
And
how's it going now? I feel stronger than ever before. I truly feel like I can do
anything my Heavenly Father asks of me. I know that I'm imperfect and that's ok.
I have to do the best I can and the Lord will make up the rest. I am so grateful
to be a missionary. I am so grateful to know we have a living prophet. And I am
grateful that I could suffer for this work in the smallest way to be able to
come closer to our Savior Jesus Christ.
This talk by Elder
Holland is amazing and definitely changed who I am as a person, a sister, a
missionary, a daughter and a disciple of Jesus Christ. I hope that you will read
or or even better, listen to it.
I
love you all!! Take care,
Sorella Jarvis
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This
is my awesome district. I love them so much. These people push me every day to be
better!!
Anziano Reese,
Sorella Condie
Sorella Roth,
Anziano Axson
Me and Sorella
Boscia
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